“God did not save you to tame you.” from Lioness Arising by Lisa Bevere
I was born to be wild. My twin was the tame one. From birth, she was responsible and compliant. She is three minutes older than me. I encouraged her be older. I depended on her to keep it together. I relished the role of youngest child.
Being a twin is both a gift and a curse. The gift is having a friend for life. We can finish each others sentences. We feel the others pain. We always have a play mate. I have a mirror, a reflection of myself and a confidante. Our children resemble one another too!
The curse comes in the form of comparison. Parents, friends, siblings and strangers are constantly comparing you. One twin might not measure up. Twins get labeled and sometimes those labels stick. I always felt a little less than.
My inferior feelings led me to wander. My fears and insecurities became a breeding ground for sin.
I grew up in a Christian home. My mom followed Jesus with passion and trained her children in His ways. We went to church as a family. I asked Jesus to be my Savior when I was eight. I read my Bible and went to Sunday School and youth group.
I strayed from this teaching in my teenage years. I rebelled and became the prodigal daughter. My attitudes and actions broke the hearts of loved ones and left a trail of devastation. I spent a lot of years sowing my wild oats.
Thankfully, I was saved from a dark and desperate place. I was running from God and everyone who loved me.
In the midst of my running, God was with me. He never stopped pursuing me. He saved me for something bigger than my mind could comprehend.
When I truly surrendered my heart to Christ, He made it very clear that He would use me. As I grew in my healing and depended more on Him, I was awakened to His call on my life.
You are not your own, you were bought with a price. (1 Corinthians 6:19 and 20)
And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)
His call on my life was to be wild for Him. As wild as I had been in my pursuit of worldly pleasures, I would shift this energy and passion into following Him.
There is nothing that I pursue or have more passion about than Jesus. His love has ransomed me and His truth has been revealed to me. In the depths of my being, I know that I am His.
I belong. I am loved and accepted. I am adored. I am wild about Him. I am wild for Him.
The days of being less than are long gone. I no longer see my sister as better, more qualified, or having it all together.
As we stand before Jesus, we are equally loved, cherished and cared for. This is true for each of us, who puts our trust in Him. His love is not partial and He has no favorites.
He wants the same for all of humanity: RELATIONSHIP with Himself.
Will you put your trust in Him today? Will you pursue Him with reckless abandon? Will you be wild for Him so that others may know Him?
- Inseparable: The Secret that Kept me Stuck (by Tammy Bolt Werthem) (iwokeupyesterday.com)
- Inseparable: Remembering Savanna Ray, Jenny Price (iwokeupyesterday.com)