“Inseparable”: Sick and Tired of being Sick and Tired
There comes a moment in an addict or alcoholic’s life where they must choose. Choose between life and death. I chose death for too many years and missed out on so much. My choices could have killed me, but God spared me. He had a different plan.
The path I was on was dark and full of destruction. I have been Baker Acted more times than I care to say. I have been to jail and on probation. I have lived in my car and in shelters. I have been off my medication (for bipolar disorder) and in a psychotic episode. I have been strung out on drugs for too many days to count.
I have hurt the ones I love the most because I chose to be sick and stay stuck in my addiction. I chose to run away from my responsibilities and live a wreck less and care less life. At times, my life was void of any meaningful relationships and full of emptiness and pain.
Thankfully, I got sick and tired of being sick and tired. I wanted to stop destroying myself, stop hurting everyone that cared about me and be free. I wanted to live a healthy life and be responsible. I finally recognized that the good life was for me and that the God who loved me had not given up on me. I chose life.
I am in my 8th year of sobriety and new life with Christ. My life is beyond my wildest dreams. I am married to an amazing man, who loves the Lord and adores me. We have three incredible children. We have a beautiful home and a business that is prospering. We are connected to a community of believers, who challenge us and love us. We serve in our church body and seek to be world changers. There are so many gifts, too numerous to count. The internal rewards of peace and hope are less visible, but equally profound. I no longer wake up to the shame that kept me stuck in my addiction. I no longer believe the lie that my sin is beyond the grace of God.
So, when an opportunity arises to share my story or to walk beside a woman who is hurting and broken, as a result of her choices, I say YES! I seek to be a light in this dark world. There are so many hurting people around us and I want to be the hand that is reaching out to help.
How has an experience in your life been a mechanism in leading someone else out of their pain and heartache? Feel free to share about your experience in the comments.
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- 5 Reasons to Tell “His Story” in You, by Michelle D. Howe (iwokeupyesterday.com)
- Got Secrets? (my thoughts on Inseperable) by Tammy Bolt Werthem (iwokeupyesterday.com)