A couple of weeks ago I sent out my blog post with the explanation that I didn’t yet have the words to express where God had me. A couple of conversations I had with some of my mentors in my church were very challenging and felt awful at the time. Not that I was mad or anything but I was in a state of confusion over who I am and what God was really wanting out of me. Well, that very next day I woke up to opportunity knocking really loud at my door.
Let me give you some background so you can understand where I’m coming from. In September 2009, I was at a Deeper Still Conference. At this point in my life, I was yearning for something new in my life. I was asking God like David in Psalm 51:10 to “Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.” Back in 2002, I began a direct sell business with a company called Arbonne and had built my business to the top but it was now dwindling down. I felt lost in what I was to do next until at this conference God confirmed in my spirit that I was no longer to be known as Michelle Howe, Arbonne but Michelle Howe, Christ follower. Making that claim out loud that day made me desire to know God more than ever. Therefore by this divine appointment, I started engulfing myself in His word to learn and allow Him to transform my heart. This divine appointment didn’t always feel so divine as God was breaking me of my old ways towards His ways through many different life experiences.
During the time of building my Arbonne business, I was very active in the business community. So suddenly, I’m not attending any local meetings or conferences because I was now busy learning and eating up God’s word. I was ok with that except now two years later, God is giving me this message and telling me to go back into the business community. I am going NO!! What are they going to think? They are going to ask me where I’ve been! Do I really have to Lord? I’m nice and safe here at my church! Well, a good punch in the teeth got my attention after months and months of resistance to moving on the idea. I’m sure if I had obeyed early on it may not have hurt so bad but this is exactly what I needed to get out of my comfort and into the opportunity laying in front of me.
So since obeying this call on my life, he has blessed me with people who actually want to compensate me for what I love to do. My purpose in life is to be an authentic woman of God that gives loves and courage to those around me. So interesting how He reveals the opportunities on any given day as long as I’m open to seeing. I don’t know that I really ever believed I could be paid for living out my purpose. WOW, what an awesome God I serve.
Believe it or not I was in resistance around even writing this today cause it is still a vulnerable area for me right now. I am excited and I’m still unsure about what lies ahead.
So where do you find yourself today? Has God given you an assignment that seems impossible? On your own strength it is impossible but with Christ all things are possible. I pray that you will obey the call and take action. You don’t want your disobedience to put you in the stomach of a big fish like Jonah. Now that’s just gross.
I woke up yesterday and said Lord, here I am use me. Michelle